I've been super busy with our prince lately, but I want everyone to know that I have been reading! I havent been able to comment much as I've been catching up on my iPhone while I breastfeed. I also wanted to update everyone and let you all know that baby Silas is doing WONDERFUL, and I'm healing up pretty well also. My incision is still a little sore, so I'm trying to take it easy, but J went back to work today so I'm hoping my strength comes back soon!
I am sooo missing spankings. I don't know what it is, but the other night, J was holding the baby and I was kneeling on the floor kissing the baby in J's lap. I looked up at my husband and all of a sudden was overwhelmed with the desire to be spanked. It was wierd. My hormones are raging and I'm crying at the drop of a hat, so I may just be looking for a pick-me-up or a reset. Every now and then walking by, J will pat my bottom and give me a smile. That made me cry the first time he did it, because I want to be spanked so badly! Sheesh. He held me, and promised me that soon, once I'm good and healed, I'll be spanked again. I know it's not going to be forever, but damn, it feels like it! It doesnt help that we cant have sex, either. I know we should both just be focusing on enjoying the baby, and of course, we are, but I can't help but miss the intimacy with J too. Ah well, soon enough!
Hope everyone else is doing well!
Monday, May 23, 2011
Friday, May 13, 2011
SOOOO in love!
Wednesday night, J gave me an "empowerment spanking" as he called it. It was a nice, warm hand spanking meant to get me in the right head space for the next days event. I was terrified about having a c-section, having to get a spinal, etc. I'm awful with needles so this was my worst nightmare. Anyway, it was sweet of him to think of me like that. It made me feel so good.
We arrived at the hospital around 9:30 am yesterday, registered, and got hooked up to the fetal monitor. Baby boy was doing great, very active still, and they explained to us the procedure. I got a little shaky when I was informed that J could not be with me while they administered the spinal but they assured me that right after, hed be coming in and things would be fine. Did not turn out to be the case. They tried inserting the spinal 5-6 times but couldn't find the right space. All I got was sharp, shooting pain in my right leg. So next they tried an epidural. That only numbed one half of my lower body. Finally they decided I would be put to sleep (first time ever). Neither J nor I witnessed our sons birth. It was nothing like we'd planned or hoped for but our prince is here and he's just amazing!
We arrived at the hospital around 9:30 am yesterday, registered, and got hooked up to the fetal monitor. Baby boy was doing great, very active still, and they explained to us the procedure. I got a little shaky when I was informed that J could not be with me while they administered the spinal but they assured me that right after, hed be coming in and things would be fine. Did not turn out to be the case. They tried inserting the spinal 5-6 times but couldn't find the right space. All I got was sharp, shooting pain in my right leg. So next they tried an epidural. That only numbed one half of my lower body. Finally they decided I would be put to sleep (first time ever). Neither J nor I witnessed our sons birth. It was nothing like we'd planned or hoped for but our prince is here and he's just amazing!
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Today's the day!
The doctors have decided it's best to go ahead with a c-section bc baby boy is up to a whopping 10 lbs, and feel it's too dangerous for me to try to deliver naturally. At first I was terrified and very upset, but I realize that my doctor is only trying to do what's best for baby and me. This afternoon (just a few short hours!!!) I'll be holding my boy :)
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Still baby-less ...
So, as much as J and I hoped, our little man did not make an appearance today. We did have a nice day, though. We had his parents over for lunch and just spent the day enjoying each other's company.
We had an appointment last Wednesday with a midwife at the practice I go to (my doctor was out for the week) and we also had an ultrasound to determine etimated size of the baby. According to the ultrasound, he is over 9 lbs! Of course, those things are not completely accurate, but it's a little frightening LOL. Anyway, the tech doing the scan seemed concerned that he's so big already and wanted to discuss with the midwife before letting us leave (the ultrasound was AFTER the appointment for some reason). So she went and talked to her, and the midwife suggested instead of coming back next Wednesday for our regularly scheduled appointment, we make one for Monday to see our own doctor immediately to discuss a plan of action. I'm assuming they're going to suggest induction, and I'm hoping they're going to set a date sometime during the coming week! Our anniversary is Friday, so I'm keeping my fingers crossed that they'll deliver him before then! My due date is Thursday, so it'd be kinda cool to have him that day. At any rate, we should know TOMORROW! I'm very excited :)
J and I spent the day together yesterday doing things for just us. We decided that since it was probably our last chance to do stuff by ourselves for a while, we'd have a date day/night. We went to lunch at my FAVORITE restaraunt, then got ice cream cones, and then we went to the movies. It was very sweet. We ended up going out with my dad and siblings for my sisters birthday dinner last night as well and by the time we got home, J was very tired and fell asleep before maintenance could be addressed. I have been promised one tonight :p
I hope everyone had a wonderful Mothers Day and weekend.
We had an appointment last Wednesday with a midwife at the practice I go to (my doctor was out for the week) and we also had an ultrasound to determine etimated size of the baby. According to the ultrasound, he is over 9 lbs! Of course, those things are not completely accurate, but it's a little frightening LOL. Anyway, the tech doing the scan seemed concerned that he's so big already and wanted to discuss with the midwife before letting us leave (the ultrasound was AFTER the appointment for some reason). So she went and talked to her, and the midwife suggested instead of coming back next Wednesday for our regularly scheduled appointment, we make one for Monday to see our own doctor immediately to discuss a plan of action. I'm assuming they're going to suggest induction, and I'm hoping they're going to set a date sometime during the coming week! Our anniversary is Friday, so I'm keeping my fingers crossed that they'll deliver him before then! My due date is Thursday, so it'd be kinda cool to have him that day. At any rate, we should know TOMORROW! I'm very excited :)
J and I spent the day together yesterday doing things for just us. We decided that since it was probably our last chance to do stuff by ourselves for a while, we'd have a date day/night. We went to lunch at my FAVORITE restaraunt, then got ice cream cones, and then we went to the movies. It was very sweet. We ended up going out with my dad and siblings for my sisters birthday dinner last night as well and by the time we got home, J was very tired and fell asleep before maintenance could be addressed. I have been promised one tonight :p
I hope everyone had a wonderful Mothers Day and weekend.
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
A Little Fun
I have never been one to be shy about sex toys. I bought a vibrator when I was 17. I was waiting to have sex until I found someone worth giving my virginity to, but that didn't mean that I didn't have needs. My vibrator was good for fulfilling those needs. I have had to replace it a few times in the past few years, but I brought it with me when I moved in with J, and now we have fun with it together. I had honestly never considered buying a dildo, because I need outside stimulation to get off, and dildos kinda creeped me out!
However, when I was given the opportunity to review a product for Eden Fantasys, we chose a dildo. After reading Audra's post, we thought it could be fun to use together. It came in a VERY discreet package, which was great, because our roommate was actually the one who found the package on the doorstep after it arrived! I would have just died if he'd been able to tell what it was, but there was no way of telling.
The actual dildo that we received was the silicone crystal cote. I decided to try it out on my own before using it with J. I was honestly a little apprehensive about using it since sex lately has been incredibly painful (being 39 weeks preggy and all) but I had NOTHING to worry about! I obviously used a bunch of lube and it felt great! The dildo is ribbed and somewhat stiff but realistic feeling. I was pleasantly surprised by how much I liked it! It was just the right size, and it even looks neat! There's also a suction cup on the bottom that I didn't use, but could be super useful in the shower! ;)
If you haven't checked out the website for Eden Fantasys, you totally should! They have a wide selection of fun toys, including dildos, glass dildos, vibrators, and more kinky stuff!
However, when I was given the opportunity to review a product for Eden Fantasys, we chose a dildo. After reading Audra's post, we thought it could be fun to use together. It came in a VERY discreet package, which was great, because our roommate was actually the one who found the package on the doorstep after it arrived! I would have just died if he'd been able to tell what it was, but there was no way of telling.
If you haven't checked out the website for Eden Fantasys, you totally should! They have a wide selection of fun toys, including dildos, glass dildos, vibrators, and more kinky stuff!
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
maintenance fulfilled
Maintenance finally happened. Today, before J went to work instead of last night. Last night I was having irregular contractions and we didn't want to mess with those so it was better to put it off til today.
It was a quick hand spanking (100 on each) and it didn't hurt too bad ;p .. nah, it wasn't bad at all. It stung a little, and I pouted afterward, but only playfully. It was nice, to be honest. It left me with that warm tingly feeling. I love being spanked before J goes to work. Something about it keeps me happy and upbeat while he's gone.
He'd wanted me to pick a card at first but I asked if he would please just use his hand. I can't handle implements right now. They all just hurt so bad, and I'm afraid that since I havent been spanked with one in quite a while, they would leave some sort of mark that would have to be explained to my doctor. No thanks!
Anyway, thought I'd pop in and update y'all. It's a beautiful day, so I'm off to take a nice, long, (probably SLOW) walk! Then it's back to eating pineapple on my bouncy ball :)
It was a quick hand spanking (100 on each) and it didn't hurt too bad ;p .. nah, it wasn't bad at all. It stung a little, and I pouted afterward, but only playfully. It was nice, to be honest. It left me with that warm tingly feeling. I love being spanked before J goes to work. Something about it keeps me happy and upbeat while he's gone.
He'd wanted me to pick a card at first but I asked if he would please just use his hand. I can't handle implements right now. They all just hurt so bad, and I'm afraid that since I havent been spanked with one in quite a while, they would leave some sort of mark that would have to be explained to my doctor. No thanks!
Anyway, thought I'd pop in and update y'all. It's a beautiful day, so I'm off to take a nice, long, (probably SLOW) walk! Then it's back to eating pineapple on my bouncy ball :)
Monday, May 2, 2011
No Baby Yet!
Thats right! He's holding tight in there. We'll be getting another growth scan on Wednesday to see how big he is. My sisters birthday is on Friday and she's hoping he'll share a birthday with her. I'm kind of hoping he doesnt have to share his birthday with anyone in the family! It would be kinda cool I guess, but, I also want him to have a day that's all his!
J stopped the daily spankings. He didn't say anything to me about it, but I think he was realizing that I didn't really need them anymore. Saturday night (maintenance day), we watched a movie on the couch and he ended up falling asleep. I had to wake him up to drag him to bed...so needless to say once we got to the bedroom, he was out like a light again. Sunday, while we made breakfast (strawberry banana belgian waffles - amazing by the way!), he patted my butt and apologized for falling asleep and missing maintenance, and promised me a spanking before bed. Well, wouldn't you know ... he fell asleep on the couch again! In his defense, he woke up really early Sunday morning, so he was tired. I again woke him up and we went to bed, and just before drifting back off to sleep, he told me we'd have a spanking today.
Now, this may shock some (or all!) of you, but I wasn't the least bit disappointed! For one, I knew that he was not intentionally blowing off the spankings or forgetting them, he was simply exhausted. Second, I am not thrilled at the idea of being spanked! Sure, it sounds nice, but when I start to think realistically, I know it's going to hurt! Yeah, yeah .. that's what I signed up for, I know ... but this past week, I just have not been in the mood. Not sure why. I know he's going to go easy, being so close to delivering and all, but I'll let you in on a secret, folks .. I'M A SUPER WIMP THESE DAYS! I am reeeeaaally sensitive. J gave me a love swat this morning and I actually jumped! Normally I'd be pushing my fanny out and waving it at him, begging for more but no, no .. not today! I covered my butt with both hands and high tailed to the living room where I promptly sat on the couch to avoid any more smacks. Sheesh. Sometimes I think about the spankings I got before I was preggy and I can't imagine taking half of that now! I hope I'm not such a wimp about spankings after the babys born or I'm gonna be in some deep doo doo!
Anyway, we had a nice weekend. J's cousin made his first communion on Sunday, so we got together with his family for a bit in the afternoon to celebrate, and I stuffed my face full of cookies and cake :p
My brother in law finally talked to J and tried to make peace (LONG and drama filled story, but to shorten it up a bit, sister in law is very immature and self centered and was alienating brother in law from his family and he just went along with it. She was treating everyone badly and he took her side and his family got fed up with it ... ). He apologized for the way sister in law treated everyone and explained that they want to have a good relationship with us and their parents, blah blah etc etc. Not sure I believe it after all thats been said and done in the past but I'm willing to put it all behind us if they are.
I hope everyone had a great weekend! Happy Monday :D
J stopped the daily spankings. He didn't say anything to me about it, but I think he was realizing that I didn't really need them anymore. Saturday night (maintenance day), we watched a movie on the couch and he ended up falling asleep. I had to wake him up to drag him to bed...so needless to say once we got to the bedroom, he was out like a light again. Sunday, while we made breakfast (strawberry banana belgian waffles - amazing by the way!), he patted my butt and apologized for falling asleep and missing maintenance, and promised me a spanking before bed. Well, wouldn't you know ... he fell asleep on the couch again! In his defense, he woke up really early Sunday morning, so he was tired. I again woke him up and we went to bed, and just before drifting back off to sleep, he told me we'd have a spanking today.
Now, this may shock some (or all!) of you, but I wasn't the least bit disappointed! For one, I knew that he was not intentionally blowing off the spankings or forgetting them, he was simply exhausted. Second, I am not thrilled at the idea of being spanked! Sure, it sounds nice, but when I start to think realistically, I know it's going to hurt! Yeah, yeah .. that's what I signed up for, I know ... but this past week, I just have not been in the mood. Not sure why. I know he's going to go easy, being so close to delivering and all, but I'll let you in on a secret, folks .. I'M A SUPER WIMP THESE DAYS! I am reeeeaaally sensitive. J gave me a love swat this morning and I actually jumped! Normally I'd be pushing my fanny out and waving it at him, begging for more but no, no .. not today! I covered my butt with both hands and high tailed to the living room where I promptly sat on the couch to avoid any more smacks. Sheesh. Sometimes I think about the spankings I got before I was preggy and I can't imagine taking half of that now! I hope I'm not such a wimp about spankings after the babys born or I'm gonna be in some deep doo doo!
Anyway, we had a nice weekend. J's cousin made his first communion on Sunday, so we got together with his family for a bit in the afternoon to celebrate, and I stuffed my face full of cookies and cake :p
My brother in law finally talked to J and tried to make peace (LONG and drama filled story, but to shorten it up a bit, sister in law is very immature and self centered and was alienating brother in law from his family and he just went along with it. She was treating everyone badly and he took her side and his family got fed up with it ... ). He apologized for the way sister in law treated everyone and explained that they want to have a good relationship with us and their parents, blah blah etc etc. Not sure I believe it after all thats been said and done in the past but I'm willing to put it all behind us if they are.
I hope everyone had a great weekend! Happy Monday :D
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