Sorry guys, its been a while! Things on the homefront have been WONDERFUL. Out of respect for my husband and for our marriage, I have done a lot of heavy thinking and re-evaluating of the things that I feel I want and need out of him. Then, I wrote them down in a series of notes, each of which we discussed after he read them. Things have been much better. J has been more firm, more vocal, and more consistent with discipline. He seems to finally be getting comfortable and accepting his role as my leader / dominant. My love for him has only grown over this journey together, and I know our bond is only growing stronger.
We have implemented a "weekly goals" list, that J writes at the beginning of each week. If the list is not complete by the end of the week, I will be punished in addition to my weekly maintenance spanking. Last week I did not finish the list, and J followed through and punsihed me. I am starting to feel like we are really figuring this out and it's starting to work :)
On the downside, J begins working on the night shift (3 - 11) again tomorrow night until the school year is over. It's a good thing in some ways because he receives a shift differential so we will have more money coming in, but on the other side of things, I hardly see him when he is on nights because we have almost opposite schedules. He is often asleep when I leave for work and I am often asleep when he comes home, so the weekends are our only time together. Not only does this put the regular stress of not seeing each other on our relationship, but we are trying to have a baby, and being limited to the weekends and RARE weeknights is not going to help our chances :-/ ... I just have to remember to be patient and it will happen when it's meant to. It's all just very overwhelming to think about.
Well, thats about all thats going on in my life right now. Hope everyone is well !! :)
