raging hormones and NO sleep :-/

My hormones have been doing a number on me...one minute I am happy, the next I am irritated and angry for no reason, and still the next, I am a teary eyed mess. We have been playing only VERY lightly, as J is pretty concerned about hurting the baby although most of the research I have done says that spanking is safe just like sex and exercise as long as it is not overly severe (which they never have been). I just miss his hands making my bottom smart :(

NEED ADVICE !!

My husband and I have found out that I am about 5 weeks pregnant! I am wondering if anyone has any advice or knows if it is safe to be spanked while you are pregnant? We have been waiting for this day for a very long time and we want to do everything possible to keep our un-born child safe. I would give up spanking for the term of my pregnancy in a heartbeat if I am told that it is unsafe, but would love to have the best of both worlds. I tend to need a lot of stress relief spankings so I know that they would be emotionally useful for me throughout the pregnancy but again, do not want to risk it. Any information you have to share is greatly appreciated !! :)

thanks guys!

weekly list addressed....

Lately, J has been giving me lots of "warm-up" spankings before my weekly reminders. I'll get a few spankings through out the day, leading up to the big one at bed time. Sunday night, J gave me a short spanking but wasn't feeling well so did not give me my full punishment that night. Yesterday, I was given a two-minute hand spanking in the morning on my bare bottom. We spent the day in Boston walking around and enjoying the sunshine and when we got home, I was given another spanking. At bed time, J ordered me to bend over the arm of the loveseat. He went to the punishment drawer and pulled out the three straps we own, the black strap, the five fingered strap, and the new doubled pink strap. He bared my bottom right off the bat and started with the pink strap. He informed me I'd be getting twenty for not doing the laundry I was asked to do. When he says "twenty" he means each cheek. Twenty consecutive strokes on each cheek. After those, he picked up the black strap and  announced I would be getting FORTY on each cheek for not cleaning the coffee table because I was asked last week :-/ ... OUCH. Then I was spanked with the five fingered strap for "general sassiness" as J calls it...25 each cheek! After that he alternated straps and blistered my bottom for a little longer, telling me, "these are just  so you'll remember."

All in all, it was an OUCHY spanking, but I kinda knew I had it coming. The past week had been really tough on us and I admittedly slacked on a lot of chores last week because I was so sad and depressed about J's schedule change and the fact I was seeing him less than half as much as in the summer. I'm glad that he punished me and that we were able to stablize grounds/roles again and I know this week I will do much better =]

its the love...

This week has been absolutely exhausting. Work has been a whirlwind, and since the summer is over, J is back on the night shift. That in itself has been hard on me. I don't like spending my nights alone and I miss talking to him, and the WORST part is going to bed alone. It is so hard falling asleep without him by my side. This morning we slept in together and cuddled most of the morning away. J gave me a short but firm hand spanking that made my bum smart. A little while later he rolled me over and started smacking my tender cheeks. I squealed, and started to rub a spot that particularly stung.
"Oh, that was just a love tap," he reminded me.
"I still can feel it!" I pouted.
"It's the love you feel, not the tap."
This made sense and I nodded my head. "Yes sir!" I whole-heartedly agreed.

It's true. After all is said and done, it's the love I feel that keeps me coming back for more.