frustrated.

I am exhausted. Little boy has started waking up every 2 hours at night to eat (he'd been going 4-5, two nights he slept 7!) and J doesn't ever even hear him cry so needless to say he does not wake up. I breastfeed so I think he thinks he doesn't need to because he can't feed him but it'd be a huge help if he got up and changed him and then gave him to me to feed. Then he could go back to sleep. It wouldn't be so bad waking up but he eats for a half hour. Then he'll sleep an hr and a half and he'll be up again trying to eat! What happened to my sleeper?! He doesn't nap during the day either. He cat naps. And will only sleep in someone's arms. So nothing gets done in the house.
I am all fine and dandy with all of this. What bothers me is two nights in a row I was promised a spanking, and didn't get one. Both nights, I'd gone to bed expecting J to be coming soon after. Saturday night, I fell asleep almost immediately, so that wasn't J's fault. Last night, he told me he was finishing the beer he had open with our roommate and he'd be in. That was at 10:50. I woke up to him coming to bed at 12:24. So frustrating! And when I made a comment this morning about not getting spanked, he said it's because I fell asleep! Oh, I'm sorry that I didn't wait up for an hour and a half for you to come to bed. Gah!

Ok, rant over. Time to brag. MY THREE AND A HALF WEEK OLD SON ROLLED OVER THIS MORNING! No, you didn't read wrong. My child is superman lol I watched him do it and he made it look so easy. I was expecting him to roll early because he's always holding his head up and looking around, he's very strong. But not THIS early! I've got a feeling I'm going to have my hands full with this boy :p

I'm still alive ...

    I've been super busy with our prince lately, but I want everyone to know that I have been reading! I havent been able to comment much as I've been catching up on my iPhone while I breastfeed. I also wanted to update everyone and let you all know that baby Silas is doing WONDERFUL, and I'm healing up pretty well also. My incision is still a little sore, so I'm trying to take it easy, but J went back to work today so I'm hoping my strength comes back soon!

    I am sooo missing spankings. I don't know what it is, but the other night, J was holding the baby and I was kneeling on the floor kissing the baby in J's lap. I looked up at my husband and all of  a sudden was overwhelmed with the desire to be spanked. It was wierd. My hormones are raging and I'm crying at the drop of a hat, so I may just be looking for a pick-me-up or a reset. Every now and then walking by, J will pat my bottom and give me a smile. That made me cry the first time he did it, because I want to be spanked so badly! Sheesh. He held me, and promised me that soon, once I'm good and healed, I'll be spanked again. I know it's not going to be forever, but damn, it feels like it! It doesnt help that we cant have sex, either. I know we should both just be focusing on enjoying the baby, and of course, we are, but I can't help but miss the intimacy with J too. Ah well, soon enough!

    Hope everyone else is doing well!