I have never been one to be shy about sex toys. I bought a vibrator when I was 17. I was waiting to have sex until I found someone worth giving my virginity to, but that didn't mean that I didn't have needs. My vibrator was good for fulfilling those needs. I have had to replace it a few times in the past few years, but I brought it with me when I moved in with J, and now we have fun with it together. I had honestly never considered buying a dildo, because I need outside stimulation to get off, and dildos kinda creeped me out!
However, when I was given the opportunity to review a product for Eden Fantasys, we chose a dildo. After reading Audra's post, we thought it could be fun to use together. It came in a VERY discreet package, which was great, because our roommate was actually the one who found the package on the doorstep after it arrived! I would have just died if he'd been able to tell what it was, but there was no way of telling.
Maintenance finally happened. Today, before J went to work instead of last night. Last night I was having irregular contractions and we didn't want to mess with those so it was better to put it off til today.
It was a quick hand spanking (100 on each) and it didn't hurt too bad ;p .. nah, it wasn't bad at all. It stung a little, and I pouted afterward, but only playfully. It was nice, to be honest. It left me with that warm tingly feeling. I love being spanked before J goes to work. Something about it keeps me happy and upbeat while he's gone.
He'd wanted me to pick a card at first but I asked if he would please just use his hand. I can't handle implements right now. They all just hurt so bad, and I'm afraid that since I havent been spanked with one in quite a while, they would leave some sort of mark that would have to be explained to my doctor. No thanks!
Anyway, thought I'd pop in and update y'all. It's a beautiful day, so I'm off to take a nice, long, (probably SLOW) walk! Then it's back to eating pineapple on my bouncy ball :)
Thats right! He's holding tight in there. We'll be getting another growth scan on Wednesday to see how big he is. My sisters birthday is on Friday and she's hoping he'll share a birthday with her. I'm kind of hoping he doesnt have to share his birthday with anyone in the family! It would be kinda cool I guess, but, I also want him to have a day that's all his!
J stopped the daily spankings. He didn't say anything to me about it, but I think he was realizing that I didn't really need them anymore. Saturday night (maintenance day), we watched a movie on the couch and he ended up falling asleep. I had to wake him up to drag him to bed...so needless to say once we got to the bedroom, he was out like a light again. Sunday, while we made breakfast (strawberry banana belgian waffles - amazing by the way!), he patted my butt and apologized for falling asleep and missing maintenance, and promised me a spanking before bed. Well, wouldn't you know ... he fell asleep on the couch again! In his defense, he woke up really early Sunday morning, so he was tired. I again woke him up and we went to bed, and just before drifting back off to sleep, he told me we'd have a spanking today.
Now, this may shock some (or all!) of you, but I wasn't the least bit disappointed! For one, I knew that he was not intentionally blowing off the spankings or forgetting them, he was simply exhausted. Second, I am not thrilled at the idea of being spanked! Sure, it sounds nice, but when I start to think realistically, I know it's going to hurt! Yeah, yeah .. that's what I signed up for, I know ... but this past week, I just have not been in the mood. Not sure why. I know he's going to go easy, being so close to delivering and all, but I'll let you in on a secret, folks .. I'M A SUPER WIMP THESE DAYS! I am reeeeaaally sensitive. J gave me a love swat this morning and I actually jumped! Normally I'd be pushing my fanny out and waving it at him, begging for more but no, no .. not today! I covered my butt with both hands and high tailed to the living room where I promptly sat on the couch to avoid any more smacks. Sheesh. Sometimes I think about the spankings I got before I was preggy and I can't imagine taking half of that now! I hope I'm not such a wimp about spankings after the babys born or I'm gonna be in some deep doo doo!
Anyway, we had a nice weekend. J's cousin made his first communion on Sunday, so we got together with his family for a bit in the afternoon to celebrate, and I stuffed my face full of cookies and cake :p
My brother in law finally talked to J and tried to make peace (LONG and drama filled story, but to shorten it up a bit, sister in law is very immature and self centered and was alienating brother in law from his family and he just went along with it. She was treating everyone badly and he took her side and his family got fed up with it ... ). He apologized for the way sister in law treated everyone and explained that they want to have a good relationship with us and their parents, blah blah etc etc. Not sure I believe it after all thats been said and done in the past but I'm willing to put it all behind us if they are.
I hope everyone had a great weekend! Happy Monday :D
I dont know what it is, but those words, really get me going! I absolutely love when J calls me baby girl. Especially when he's praising me, such as "Good job baby girl," or "You look great baby girl." MMMM gives me shivers!
Anyway, not much to report on the spanking front. Other than a short hand spanking last night, we havent had any spankings in some time.
I've been trying to get things done around the house but it's difficult. I did, however, finish packing my hospital bag and the diaper bag for Silas. I have been trying every at-home-induction method I've ever heard of since finding out the chunker was 7 lbs 11 oz as of last week (and thats just estimated, we were told he very well could be BIGGER!). The ultrasound to determine his size and position was pretty awesome though, as we got to watch him practice breathing, and were informed that he has hair! Anyway, so far none of the at home methods have worked, obviously. Apparently he's just not ready to greet the world yet! Hopefully, very soon!
Have a great weekend, everyone! Another chapter is up at spanko stories :)
There have been no spankings in my house since SUNDAY! There has been no mention of spankings whatsoever. He has not told me that I wouldn't be getting daily spankings, and he hasn't mentioned anything about maintenance today. While I am wondering what's going on in his mind, I'm actually okay with all of this. I have come to a better understanding that it is up to him, and if he doesnt feel the need to discuss it, that's fine. I'm getting better at not expecting a spanking, so I don't experience the let down when it doesn't happen. I'm letting go, and letting him decide. YAY ME!
Tomorrow is the anniversary of the day that J's grandmother passed. She passed long before we got together, therefore I never had the pleasure of meeting here. They were extremely close, and J's mom thinks that our little boy might be making an appearance tomorrow, as there have been a lot of births in their family that fall on the day another family member has passed. I think that would be really sweet.
I hope everyone is having a great weekend. Happy Easter everyone :)
First, and most exciting, J is working days this week :) I love when he works first shift! AND, he had a holiday Monday, has the day off tomorrow for an ultrasound, and has a holiday Friday. So he only has to work two days, and the other three are still paid! Woo hoo! Gotta love a week like this.
That being said, last night was kind of a rough one. I did not get my daily spanking yesterday. I thought he'd give it to me first thing when we woke up, but it didn't happen. Then, I started thinking that maybe he was waiting unil later when we'd have the house to ourselves, since he wasn't working, what was the rush? Nothing all day, either. Not even a hint. We went to dinner, came home, still nothing. By the time bedtime rolled around, I'd pretty much figured he'd forgotten. Despite the fact that my butt was still tender from Sunday night's spanking and I really didn't want one, I was still hurt. I started to feel like the spankings, and I, just didn't matter to him. I felt rejected. He usually admits to me when he almost forgets, and then ALWAYS says that he doesnt forget often, which is true. He really hardly ever forgets when there's supposed to be one. Anyway, while we were laying in bed watching tv, I worked up the courage to say,
"You forgot today, you know."
"Forgot what?" and before I could say anything else he continued, "Your spanking? I didn't forget. I'm skipping today because you got bruised last night. You'll have one tomorrow. I don't want your butt to be purple when you finally go into labor..."
I rolled over, completely unconvinced. I wanted to say a million things but I felt my emotions take over and my eyes were filling with tears. "I think you forgot," I said.
"No I didn't!" he insisted.
"You're mad I didnt spank you?" he asked.
"I'm not mad," my famous line. "You didn't say anything about it,"
"Why do I have to? I thought it was my choice," he argued.
There was so much stuff rolling around in my head that I wanted to say but I knew if I did I would just burst into tears, and I didn't think I could handle that right then. So I took a few minutes, sucked it up, and rolled back over to face him. He asked if I was okay, I assured him I was, and we turned the tv off and put music on to fall asleep to. In the dark, it was much easier for me to find the courage to say, "How do you feel about doing maintenance maybe earlier in the day on Saturday, instead of at night?"
"Why?" he wanted to know.
"Because it always gets put off," I said quietly.
"No it doesnt," he countered.
"Pretty frequently," I amended, waiting for an answer.
"You don't like skipping a day, huh?" he asked.
"No, sir."
"Okay," he agreed. He then joked around a little bit, saying he'd have to stay up real late on Friday night so he could spank me Saturday morning between 2 and 4 AM. I'm almost positive he was kidding about that, but I felt good about letting him know I didn't like skipping maintenance.
Today while he worked, I wrote him a letter, expressing all the things I'd been thinking the night before. My brain is kinda all over the place lately so I touched on a lot of things. I explained to him that I definitely was not mad that the daily spanking was skipped on monday, that I actually would have welcomed the break if he'd told me we were skipping it. That because he didn't say anything, I thought he forgot, which led me to feel rejected and uncared about. I told him that spankings were very intimate to me and that I looked forward to those times together, so when I think all day that it's going to happen and then it doesnt, I feel hurt. I talked about a lot of other things that I'd sort of bottled up, and it felt wonderful to let it all out. I think I'm making progress! :D
AAAAAAAANNNNNDDDD ... I got another chapter up at stories by a spanko
go read & leave me some comments, pretty please :p
Maintenance got post-poned. Again. This was the third week in a row! By the time J told me that it was going to occur Sunday instead of Saturday, I'd already figured it out on my own. He had a bad headache, and we'd just finished watching a movie around 1:30 AM. I wasn't tired, and just lay in bed while J snored beside me. Around 3 AM, I couldn't find anything else on tv that I even remotely wanted to watch, so I got up and went to the living room and sat on my laptop for a little bit, working on some writing. By 4, my eyes were stinging from staring at the bright screen in the dark so I decided to go to bed. I climbed into bed next to J, who immediately started snoring loudly. sigh. I played some music on my iPhone and set the timer to turn the music off in an hour. I fell asleep some time before the music turned off.
By Sunday afternoon I was feeling hectic. I hadn't been spanked saturday at ALL (since it's maintenance day, J doesn't give me my daily in the morning) and he skipped the daily sunday morning since maintenance had been post poned, and maintenance always happens right before bed. When it was finally time for my spanking, I was actually kind of looking forward to it. Until he took the five fingered strap out. Greeeaaaat. It's better than the loopy, but not much. He spanked away with it, warming me up before he started with the numbered sets. I got 50 on each for the first set, then he let me rest for a minute, and he finished with 75 on each. The tips of each finger wrapped around the curves of my booty, and my sit spot was getting a lot of attention. One time, it wrapped in and stung the very inside curve of my bottom, very close to dangerous territory. I have a lovely bruise there today. I ended up crying at the end.
I am going to talk to him about revising our maintenance ritual. Either I need to have my daily spanking in the morning, and then maintenance later on, that way if it gets put off, I won't have gone the whole time with no spanking..OR have the maintenance spanking take place earlier in the day. I don't really think I'd like having two spankings a day when maintenance ends up actually taking place on Saturdays, so I'm hoping he goes for moving it up to an earlier time in the day. I guess we'll see.
