In a sort of funk ...

   I have been feeling a little strange lately. I'm not entirely sure what it is, but I am constantly feeling like I need to be spanked.  Friday night, I texted J at work and told him I wouldn't mind a spanking when he got home. I got one. Saturday was maintenance and J chose a card, and I was spanked again. Sunday, I asked for a spanking and J decided on three minutes with the cane, and 150 on each with the black strap. All day yesterday I wanted to be spanked, but J wasnt feeling well so I didn't bring it up. He was home from work and for him to call out of work, he has to be feeling really bad. I just wanted him to be able to rest.
   Today, I just keep thinking about it. Maybe it's because the other spankings didn't bring me to tears, and I'm looking for that release? Last night, we watched a movie in bed (My Sister's Keeper, very good movie, terrible mistake to watch when pregnant and emotional,) and I cried practically through the whole thing. Granted, it was a sad movie, but it felt good to cry. J held me and whispered to me and kissed my head and made me feel secure. But I still want to be spanked. I don't know why, all I know is I should bring it up to J before it gets out of hand. I know from experience that if I say nothing and just let it build, it's going to get ugly and that's the last thing either of us wants. I just hate asking for it, I get anxious and nervous and sort of ashamed. I especially feel embarassed because I've been spanked 3 out of  the last 4 days. Ugh. I wish I could sort through these feelings!